My posts have been really depressing of late but I feel now like I have my big girl pants on. I feel so much better and I have come to the glaringly obvious conclusion that it doesn’t really matter what makes me feel better, me, medication or a combination of both.
I have written about the mistakes that I have made and the regrets that I have. As a very wise friend said to me, you cannot live in your past, nor can you go back and change it. The only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes and live my best life.
So that is my plan, remain compliant and look after myself both physically and mentally. I have an amazing family and wonderful friends and I am so lucky and appreciative to them all.
No more poor me posts. There will be ups and downs because that is what bipolar but I know I am very much not alone with this.
My coping mechanisms are already starting to work. I have not self harmed in over 2 months now, which I am really proud of myself for. I’ve started looking after myself physically, and i feel so much better for it.
So let’s look forward instead of back and live in the here and now.
“I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination”